ULI wrote…

kings wrote…

but I'm not in any music making state of mind at all

Schade   

kings wrote…

in times of peace...............times of war...............front line fighting

Very martial idioms.    Sounds like your "engineīs running at its limit".
Take care on yaself and stay healthy, my friend.  Donīt run into a burnout state.
Itīs a small edge to keep the balance on when requirements and expectations come from everywhere all the time .
On one hand itīs good to see youīre succeeding vocational and that ya company is growing. And the family also demands attention and has a good life.
On the other hand it means the loss of freedom, being oneself .
Yes, a small edge.................the hard phase of life..............

All the best to you and ya fam

U.L.I.